So Over It September 22, 2008

I am so ready for this election season to be over.  I almost cringe even mentioning it here since we’re all pretty freaking tired of it.  I’m tired of keeping my views and thoughts about everything held so closely because so many of the people around me would see me as a traitor.  My own husband and I rarely discuss politics anymore.  We used to be of one mind regarding these issues, but that day abruptly ended. 

This seemed like an appropriate time to go back to one of my favorite blog posts from this past summer.  It was posted for July 4th over at Adventures in Mercy, and I haven’t forgotten it.  You can find it here.  It is well-worth the read.

Where Have I Been?? September 17, 2008

Well, it’s official.  I can’t blame my husband’s genetics for my son having ADHD.

So where have I been since August 24th, you ask?  Even if you aren’t asking, I’ll tell you.  I have been distracted – completely bouncing around from one thing to another with moments of intense hyperfocusing.  Every time I try to judge my husband I find myself in the uncomfortable position of seeing that I am worse than him.  Blast!  Just one time could he have a speck in his eye without me having a plank in mine??  (Sorry for the Christianese)

It all started with me losing my focus before I really even got started on tackling the anxiety.  There was a carrot danging, and I was drooling for it.  The 6th Harry Potter movie was coming out in November, and I happen to have loved that book.  Then they moved the movie into next summer.  My carrot was gone and I got discouraged.  So easily discouraged, I know.  I had chosen the wrong carrot, and that was really the problem.

What happened next is that it rained.  It rained!!!  I think it was from Tropical Storm Faye.  Anyway, I was so taken with the rain that I just walked around for a couple of days watching it and stepping out in it.  It was glorious!  Then I realized that my soul was starving for some nature.  I grew up on a farm and spent at least 60% of my time at home outdoors.  My time outdoors these days is painfully minute, and I have seen the toll that it has taken on my kids.  So Nathan and I went camping with my sister and her husband.  It was glorious!  I put a chair in the creek and sat there with my feet in the water reading an entertaining book that contained no real substance.  Nathan played in the creek with my sister’s dog.  It was amazing how similar they were in the water.

Ever since then I’ve just flitted around.  Homeschool co-op started, and the kids are loving it.  I’ve had a nasty cold for 10 days and threw myself a pity party.  Nobody came. 

Today I spent too much time trying to find a picture of myself for the Facebook account I opened.  I had to pull one from over a year ago because I realize that I am always the one taking the pictures.  I literally could not find a decent one of myself.

So that’s where I’ve been since August 24th.  Really profound and interesting, huh?  If you’re still reading,  you must be pretty bored!!