Below the surface… what resides there?
Some of the most mysterious and terrifying creatures dwell in the depths of the ocean. Its sheer vastness is mind-boggling. Yet there also seems to be a tremendous peace in its depths – a stillness even among moments of violence. How can such mystery, terror, and peace co-exist?
Who am I? What mask am I wearing today? Am I being witty and social and hoping that you find me intelligent and fascinating? Probably – unless I have PMS. That may actually be one of the few times that I don’t care how you find me. On those days I’m fortunate to find myself.
I’m ready to swim. As I go below the surface, what will happen? I am somewhat afraid of water. I have never been snorkeling, but I can imagine the sensation of hyperventilating while trying to convince myself that I can indeed breathe and take in the view as long as I have the mouthpiece in – and as long as I don’t go too deep.
It is my heart’s cry to find my real self in this blog. I spent years wearing various masks, trying desperately to earn the love of my family, friends, and mostly Father. Along the way I lost my identity. It’s time for me to remove that mask and scratch the surface. It’s time to take Jesus by the hand and actually follow Him below the surface. Ultimately, I am sure that this venture will take me to the arms of Father – where I was created to dwell. It’s the only place to find true identity.
and below the surface, in the depths are the most beautiful, intricate creatures. I think you will find more than peace, more than identity even, you will find incredible beauty.
It’s a privilege to have a view of this process of finding yourself. You are not alone. You have friends, on the sideline, cheering you on. Keep writing … don’t listen if the voice tells you it’s not good enough … POST IT! You may very well put to the words the struggles that others find themselves in. Be their voice as well.
Hey!! I am so glad you are here. I’ll catch up with you when I finish reading everything!!